Why We Rebels (aka Black Sheep) are the First to Awaken
This message is for spiritually awakened individuals--those who’ve always felt like the outsiders or “black sheep”--both within the family and in the world at large. For us, the path to self-realization typically begins with our lives painfully falling apart. This post explores why the “hitting bottom” or having our lives painfully unravel is not a failure—it’s the first step in the journey back to our truth and authenticity.
Perhaps you’ve grown up feeling unwelcome, unwanted, unloved even--like the outsider looking in at something that wasn’t available to you. The inability to fit in. Whether it was at school as a kid, an adult at work, and especially within your own family--you were always the rebel. You may not have shown it outwardly, but you definitely felt it inwardly. This innate rebelliousness couldn’t help but manifest in unexpected ways that others perceived, even if you didn’t.
My father nicknamed me “Little Lulu” when I was kid, after the little girl in the cartoon who was “always in and out of trouble, but mostly always in...” The thing was, I never thought I had done anything unusual or even wrong. But I sure did manage to get in trouble a lot.
These experiences led me to believe that there was something inherently wrong with me—that I was defective, an anomaly. I tried my darndest to fit in, but it just never worked. Sometimes I still try—that is, until I remember that’s not who I am anymore.
People-pleasing and pretending may feel like the path of least resistance, but I can assure you that it is hard work! The result was debilitating fatigue that I took me most of my life to overcome.
Maybe you’ve come to a point in your life where the job you once loved now drains you. Or maybe the relationships that used to feel safe start to feel stifling and you find yourself drifting away from them. What once felt comfortable now becomes almost unbearable. You want to rip off the mask you've worn for years because you’re tired of pretending--tired of living half a life.
You’ve probably already come to the realization that spiritual awakening doesn’t always arrive as we’d like—it isn’t pretty or painless. In fact, in my experience, it’s been incredibly challenging for many years. I’m witnessing this happen amongst my friends, colleagues, and clients as well.
What I’ve come to realize is that you don’t grow when you’re comfortable. Most times it takes a good kick in the ass to wake that ass up. Then, and only then can you become willing to change your life. If you don’t, no one is going to magically do it for you. And I think you’ll find that no amount of activations, cacao ceremonies, or manifestation YouTube videos will provide a shortcut.
The good news is that if you feel like the black sheep, you’re not falling apart—your life is really just beginning! The version of you that played small to stay safe is dissolving. The one who kept the peace by keeping silent is being set free. And what’s emerging is something deeper, truer, more courageous.
So if you’ve spent your life as the black sheep—always questioning, always sensing the unsaid—this awakening is both painful and liberating. That’s because you were never meant to blend in. You were meant to remember the truth of who you really are.
“How do I this?” you may ask. Well, as a former mentor explained to me when I first started this journey, you didn’t get there in a week or month. This “identity” is something that can be recreated and redefined by you. You begin by peeling the layers of pain away to discover the real you that’s been buried by years of self-doubt and insecurities, by feeling rejected and unlovable. And as you do this, you find the Divinely worthy and lovable you that has always been there. You keep chipping away until you’re radiantly shiny and feeling so wonderful that no one else’s’ opinion of you matters to you but your own.
This isn’t a journey you have to navigate alone. I have come to know that when our outer world falls apart, our inner world is calling for healing. That’s where modalities like hypnotherapy, past life regression, and subconscious reprogramming come in. They help you:
Unravel inherited programming
Quiet the noise and hear your own voice
Find peace amid the dismantling
Reconnect with your soul’s purpose
I’d like to remind you that there is absolutely nothing wrong with you except that you’ve been programmed to believe that there is. And yes—it might look and feel like you’re falling apart. But what if falling apart is exactly how you come together?
Your awakening doesn’t need to make sense to anyone else. It only needs to feel true to you.
